My First Heartbreak!💔

 We've all been there; I thought I had broken my heart already but I was wrong this's the first time and yeah that's excruciating! When I was 16, I had my First Love; He Completed me; We were perfect in our way and were inseparable. I wish I can spend every waking second just looking at him...

Every tiny action he does is exaggerated and in slow-mo in my head and I wish he is mine. I think about him all the time and every romantic song on has me and him being picturised!. I was crazy about him. We believed that our fates were intertwined and thought it'll last Forever and beyond and that forever ended in like 8 months; 

He left me and all of the sudden everything around me felt different. Every waking moment is agony. Every breath is a tragedy. Every second of every day I wish would just end so I can rest my suffering soul. Some days I wake up already by crying. Some days I sob uncontrollably into my steering wheel on the way to class. Some days are better than others. And some days you feel pain like no other. All the cuts, bruises, and burns through the years don’t compare to this pain. I feel my soul is sobbing; I feel it being ripped apart and calling out in agonizing pain for him to come back. My dreams haunt me. My sleepless nights torment me. Thinking is self-inflicted torture. I remember his smell. I remember the comfort of his arms. I remember that distinctive feeling of making love with someone I would die for. I remember the sound of his laugh, and it still makes me smile. I remember all his little quirks and kinks that made him unique. I was desolate and inconsolable. My friends tried to comfort me in all possible ways but all I wanted then is to lean on his shoulder and hold his hands;

A little girl inside me kept on saying "call him back; say how you feel; I wanted to do that but deep inside I know he's not the one & I had tried hard to shut that little emotional girl inside me down.

Yeah, those days were awful. I wanted to cry out loud and tear my heart apart. But then I realised I was not the only one out there going through that shit. So I decided to move on and I swear that was harder than I thought. 

Okay I learnt a few things from what I went through; I want to say to you people this;

Just Because You Love somebody that doesn't mean they're the right one for you. Love is a choice; There're millions of people out there and You'll surely find one. It'll take time to recover but It's Okay.

Just Know that Single life is Awesome than you think. Cmon Enjoy it, Embrace it, Live it! Focus on self-love; Keep yourself engaged doing things you wanted to do for a long time. If you love to Cook, then Cook; If you love to sing, sing out loud; If you wanna dance, then fuckin do it; Just Be You! Know that Love will come your way when you're ready. Keep your chins up; You got this.